exxy’s spot

well, there are less drastic means but that is one immediate and tangible thing we can do to help guimaras recover. no, i really do not know the extent of the damage cause i had not been reading the news but so far what i know is enough to make me resolve to get a haircut.

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waaaaahhhhhh….i’m gonna miss my hair.
i promised myself that i will not cut it until i take the lawyer’s oath

(i usually have a haircut only when a major change in my life is going on)

but this is more important.
well, actually i do not not have cash or check to donate hehehe
it’s been a year and a half since my last haircut–from almost waist length to just below the ear
so now it’s more than shoulder length and i love using a chopstick to  keep it in place..
it’s been my habit throughout law school and i missed it after a year of waiting for my hair to grow back.
alas, i have nothing else to offer the people of guimaras.

so if you are more fortunate than me, please do what you can to help…
help save lives, and our future =)

our strength lies in
the goodness of the Lord.

it does not matter how
great a tragedy or

how inconsequential a
burden we may be carrying now.

what matters is that
we do not give up in the face of adversity.

obstacles will inevitably
go our way.

it matters not how
many but how we handle them.

in the end, let your
spirit prevail.

God is with you all the way.

to all my friends who will be taking the bar, let’s
stay healthy  in mind and spirit and

remember that in the end, it is not what you have been doing
for the last five years

but what you are gonna do in the next five weeks. just don’t
quit, whokie? =)

to all my friends in law school, God bless you and

keep your mind clear and focused during your midterms.

promise, i will keep aside a li’l of the luck i have left
from my past life =)

to all my friends outside law school,

every day is a chance given to us to live life to the
fullest,

and happiness is a choice.

stay cool and hope we can catch up after this thingie
=)

misha all and God bless, mwah mwah

it’s the middle of august, and being the proverbial
insane-by-the-middle-of-august bar reviewee, here is my bold proposition:

vinci, will you marry me? =)

well, i’m sure me and twenty thousand other gurls gave this
idea a thought at one point in our college days…now that i met him, my
ultimate crush is definitely worth proposing to (soree, i’m still goin’ gaga
over the fact that i met, got a peck on the cheek and had my picture taken with
my long-time crush vinci of the parokya ni edgar).sigh. if only i can get him
to marry me, then i might consider giving up single-blessedness. mwe he he he. c’mon, don’t say anything to burst my bubble, this is my blog =) and being
a sitting duck worrywart who might
possibly be a victim of karmic disaster (again!) i am entitled to my quirks in
this mad world of bar review that i live in. especially in august, i have a
license to be crazy (perfect excuse for my temporary insanity! hehehe)

i’m usually apathetic about celebrities but when i got the
chance to meet vinci, the small-town gingoognon gurl in me just cannot resist
giggling over the fact of meeting him and exchanging a few meaningless lines
with him…meeting the guy you adored in college and you only wished you’d see
ten meters away during their performance can totally transform an otherwise
sane, logical gurl into a bimboish, giggling and shrieking gurl that i
had been these last few days. okay, i invented bimboish but there is no
better word to describe the smiling, glazed-eyed gurl i turned into since i met
him. hehehe. oh, i was relatively cool to his face and tried to compose myself
like i meet my long-time crush everyday but when i got home i was shrieking with
glee and glowing from the thought that yes, he is human and yes, it was
possible to meet him in my lifetime.haaay.sigh.sigh.one more sigh.

of course, like a typical peyups stude, i am a certified
eheads fan but parokya ni edgar is also one of those bands who had sung
my thoughts while i was learning the realities of life in peyups..for our
generation, parokya ni edgar articulated in such a funny way what our angsts
were…our fears, our joys and our experiences. and they sing it like it
happens everyday so you feel comfortable in the eccentricity of their songs. it’s your ordinary thoughts that they made extraordinary with their zany antics
and their comical presentation. i dunno many of their songs but i really really
like: my all-time-favorite “buloy”, “maniwala ka sana”, silvertoes, “harana”,
picha pie, “sorry na”, and of course my theme song for mama lai “halaga”, our-after-midterms-or-finals-in-loskul song “inuman na”, recently fun song
ordertaker (thanks to vince the bubu’s friend, for making me a convert) and my kilig song “para sa ‘yo”. and oh, my
oh-so-gay theme song this guy’s in love with you pare…

i’ve always been a deviant so while most of the gurls
primarily place their adoration for chito, i go for the cool and wacky vinci.. believe me, i don’t usually go gooey over a guy but he
is a good exception =) he
was so patient with me and my requests for a picture (which i never, never,
never did in my entire life but when i met him i couldn’t care less! jologs na
kung jologs basta me picture ako na kasama siya!) and he was game enough to
have a crazy shot with me. haaaaay.

it was a nice break from laboring over tedious, boring
readings and i would like to thank bingers for being such a great friend (he is
my friendster connection to vinci) and thanks to ms.thei for her phone (which
we used to take the pix). even if i did not get to go to the beach this month,
my happiness from meeting vinci is enough to keep me sane in the last leg of my
review.

oh.i remember.i have to study.hehehe.soree, can’t resist
the thought of sharing my elation at
meeting my long-time celebrity crush.haaaay.after all these years, i am still
a small town giggling gurl who got starstruck. (stupid, pasted
grin) =oP

Bacolod is the place to be. Next to my hometown of course,
this is the place where I would wanna spend the rest of my life in (assuming
that I had checked more than half of my things to do before I die and I can do
the rest in one place, with enough resources hehehe). I tagged along Pixie’s
Bacolod trip and had the time of my life. Haaaaay, I wish we stayed a bit
longer.

Well, thanks to Ms. Thea’s suggestions, I had a list of
things to do by the time I got there including: eating chicken inasal at
manukan country or chicken house, cakes from Calea, half moon at Pendy’s; going
to to Pepe’s, Café Bobs, and Lakawon Beach. Oh my, oh my. YUM YUM YUM YUM YUM.
Haaaaaay…..I looooooooooooooove Negrense way of cooking! Food trip! Everything,
and I daresay everything is absolutely done in the yummiest way possible! And
oh, it costs way a lot cheaper than in this urban jungle that I live in.
Home-cooked goodness everywhere! Imagine, I ordered a white mocha with mint, a
yumyum cake with walnuts sprinkled on it, a chocolate cake for take-out and ten
yumyum double choco cookies, all for two hundred pesos! And the sinful fudge
that Pixie bought? Boy, it is sinful indeed! I t’s like being such a goodie
gurl for a decade and I had a taste of my prize. Plus the cake at Calea? Sigh.
I got the choco cake and blueberry cheesecake for just 130.00!!! We also tasted
the half moon at Pendy’s (which we got for free since mami bought about a
thousand pesos of pastries hehehe) and the taste just blew me away. No kidding.
I was bobbing my head while chewing the delights of Bacolod pastries. Oh, you
gotta eat at this Japanese restaurant in one of the hotels there (geez! I
forgot the name but its Kai-something)I met with some relatives and they took
me and Pixie there for dinner. Well, I’m biased coz I love Japanese food but
it’s really, really good. For some reason, the food there tastes different.
It’s not your run of the mill dishes. And the grilled squid in mambukal….lemme
just say I was humming while eating with a stupid grin on my face. Sigh. Good
food always makes me giddy.

We had a few drinks at Korean Grill Bar and the place is
really great. They have videoke, billiards, and you gotta taste their swamp
water drink. I know, I know, swamp water is not so nice to imagine but the
taste will make you think “if living in a marsh would mean I get to have this
whenever I want, then I gladly would!”. I dropped by Pepe’s also and their
strawberry margarita is good except that I would rather go the hard way hehehe
so for the ladies, that would be nice.

We went to Mambukal Mountain Resort and that is definitely
one of the places I will put in my favorite list. Since we arrived late, we
were not able to go to the falls so I just took a dip at the hot spring (which
is around two hours and for another hour before sleeping hehehe). It is a
mountain with seven water falls, quite a number of springs and some man-made
pools, camping grounds, slide for life and trekking trails. They have cottages
or rooms for rent if you wanna stay overnight, which is highly recommended
since a whole mountain is hard to explore in a day. For nature trippers who
would like to explore in a “safe”
environment (read: free from the adventure and dangers of a camping trip), it’s
a treat. You can have guides wherever you may wanna go. Of course I went my way
alone. What’s the use of being in a trip if there is no adventure right?

Most importantly, the people are sooooooooooooooo nice (and it is not because of their accent)! they treated me like a friend they asked to come over when in fact i was just tagging along with Pixie. I guess that is what made the Bacolod trip really great coz I got to meet: our host the master robert, his friend the lady michelle, a very perfect-together couple–hot hot hot Crix and nice Charles, the ultimate hustler Marcus, my kinda billiards teacher Rommel,a friend of a friend of a friend james,another couple witty mike and cool chick may, my cousin johnny and the honeymooners xavier and janielle.I was not able to check every item in my list but i have someting to look forward to coz now that i’ve been there, i’m definitely goin back to Bacolod! lakawon beach,here i come =)

* my invented ilonggo phrase hehehe i dunno if it’s the right way to say "it’s true, delicious indeed!"

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me, I know, but I can’t change
Tried to tell you, but you look at me like maybe,
I’m an angel underneath, innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything, all rolled into one

I’m a bitch, I’m a lover, I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint, I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream, I’m nothin’ in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

So take me as I am
this may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
and I’m goin’ to extremes, tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing

Just when you think you got me figured out
The season’s already changin’
I think it’s cool, you do what you do
and don’t try to save me

I’m a bitch, I’m a tease , I’m a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer,
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb, I’m revived, can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

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la lang…a song by Meredith Rrooks.
also sang by Alanis.
definitely one of my favorite songs when fate messes me up..or tries to =) 

10. quit stressing about it.
        by this time last year  i had so many stress-related problems ( according to the derrmatologist and doctor that  i consulted). thank God this year there are no signs yet (either i’m successful or because i’m getting used to it mwe he he he). i was so grouchy i might as well have been a frown pasted with a face. thank you Lord, this year i’m taking it one day at a time,with a smile (maybe next week it’ll be harder to keep this resolution).

at the end of the day, like what my pops said, it’s just an exam. it does not define who i am.

  9. forget about other people’s problems for a change.
        according to uncle ben,"with great power comes great responsibility." i dunno why but  still have to realize that  i am not spiderman (okay, mejo malabo ang comparison kasi una babae ako. pangalawa,la naman talaga akong superpowers,akala ko lang kaya ko iligtas ang buong mundo.at pangatlo, mejo mas  personal ang mga problema na inaatupag ko…la lang, gusto ko lang kasi i quote si uncle ben.hehe)     
   
really have to work on this. aaarrrrgggghhhhh.pakialamera kase.chismosa pa.hay.

  8. take a leave from being the kamag-anak/kababayan/anak ng nanay niya/anak ng  tatay niya-na-nasa-manila-na-makakasama-sa-kung-saan-man
        now this i cannot possibly do…but i guess by august i have to learn.God, please teach me to say "sorry  tita/tito/cousin/kababayan,di ko po kayo masasamahan. mga 20,000 pages po and kelangan kong aralin at  nasa 500 pages pa lang po ako."

but if i don’t…who will? my poor relatives/kababayans who need to have someone go with them to whereever in this urban jungle might get lost …or worse, be a prey to heartless persons who take advantage of those "bagong salta sa manila".
      
i just don’t have the heart to do this.

  7. i will not be a "losyang" reviewee.   
like last year.ugh.uncombed hair every freaking day.for five months.thought that it is a waste of time to go through the routine of  choosing your clothes and looking at the mirror. but felt ugly the whole time (di ako  kagandahan pero  pag me  konting effort  eh nawawala naman yung lukot ng damit ko at nagmumukha naman  akong tao…)

oh. by the way, my idea of dressing "up" is taking time to dry my hair (with the electric fan) ,thinking what  to wear (for thirty seconds…one minute max!),putting on powder and cheek tint, and choosing a bag.

  6. stop being supersititious about it.
i did not put my real permanent address on the self-addressed stamped envelope cause a kababayan said "malas daw yung mga babae na kumumuha ng exam galing sa siyudad namin " so i wrote another address.tapos andami  pang mga pamahiin…pati yung color ng damit namin (sabi kasi ni rosa, dapat  green kasi yun ang lucky color last year).

pero wag nga kayong mag-aral sa LSAC friends….i am  a living proof.totoo yun. (na me bumabagsak sa mga LSAC residents every year.)

  5. take more breaks.
compared to a typical reviewee, i had lotsa breaks last year….but i was really intense on reading every single g*dd@mn day that even if i went out i did not have fun cause i felt guilty for not studying. so there was nothin to look forward to cause even my so-called-breaks were guilt-ridden.

this year, i  went to the beach during review twice already and i will go one more time before preweek,i swear! have to finish first reading before the bacolod vacation. wheeeeeeeee!!!! a real break to be excited about!

  4. sleep less.
this is my ultimate vice. sloth personified i am. guilty as charged.i can afford to sleep even in august last  year (though there were nightmares and uncontrollable anxiety attacks  before going to sleep). i guess i am hopeless on this one. i spent at least one third of my life sleeping. i don’t  think  it will change. but i have to at least exert a perfunctory effort to try.hehe.

  3. quit quitting stuff.
last  year: no booze from july-september.no beach. no vacations. no big breaks. only one movie a week,twice in july, none in august. no meeting with friends.no texts the whole day.no friendster.no night outs.no social life of any kind.no dating (joke! never did hehehehe).suspended lovelife (okay,i confess i had nothing to quit hehehe but i had musings of having one before the review started)
   
this year:   nothing can keep me away from my strong ice. ever. i will go with pixie to batangas on august. will be in bacolod on july. i will watch superman next week.i’m meeting judith on sunday.i won’t turn off my phone for the whole day.i’m blogging.okay maybe i have to give up the night outs…but not the social life part. hhhmmmm…i guess i’ll never be the dating kind but maybe i’ll try it for a change.good thing i don’t believe in love anymore.
 
2. STUDY.
        MWE HE HE HE .apparently, i did not know enough stuff to get me through.
 
1. PASS.
now this is the hardest part. licked my wounds and am preparing for the next round. i thought i was ready last year  but when it’s time, sheesh! i lost all confidence and just broke down after each freakin subject. lost hope  i’m gonna make it after civ.that sunday, i called up pops and moms and profusely apologized  for failing them.
      
not gonna happen this time.

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i’m keeping all the good resolutions that i had last year…just changin some cause once again i tried to conform to the norms and it did not work for me.i guess i should stay out of the box.

well, all of us have worries, but i have a drinking problem…

you gotta read this to understand how i feel.

let’s live life friends! stay happy n’ such *wink* wink*

SUBJECT: exxy the beach bum

ADDICTION STATUS: hopelessly incurable

SYMPTOMS: illogical and unreasonable longing to go to the beach and very recently just took a WEEK-LONG break(!!!!) to escape to the island of camiguin; acted like a completely crazy kid who just got a huge lollipop while lying in the morning sun at the white sand bar;fun is running around and playing with the fishes; got a tan which made her sunblock-smothered bestfriend shriek in disbelief;have an irresistible passion for the sun,sea and sand;has a mild to moderate addiction to other bodies of water that she bathed in: swimming pool of soda water,hot spring,cold spring,waterfalls,stream; can’t get enough aqua massage from the stream of water running through her back; took great delight in snorkeling and kayaking in duka bay until it was too dark to see anything; mother gasped at the sight of her tanned child who is almost unrecognizable as she is already morena to start with; swore she will save enough money to get that freaking  license to dive and get to see the wonders of the underwater;delightfully went to another beach upon settling back at home;took a last minute dip with pops in the sea at the back of their house.

DIAGNOSIS: suffering from an incurable addiction to the beach and the sight of the sunset; will take a lifetime of travel to the best beaches of the world and a diving license to achieve a semblance of happiness;suffering from moderate hydro-mania and will happily jump into any body of water;certified sun worshiper and probably lost remaining brain cells due to burning from direct sunlight;patience with the outside world fast diminishing;beyond redemption.

MEDICATION: friends must donate cash to avoid possible early demise of subject due to impatience from lack of funds to buy her own sixteen-foot kayak and the very expensive diving license.immediate action required. friendship is good but subject needs cash. =)

overheard at a coffeeshop in the vicinity of loyola:

(gurl1 and gurl2 are sitting beside each other with individual tables, they seem to be studying for some scientific-sounds-like-physics-something exam…uuhh sa lakas ng boses ni gurl1!?! aba’y nanunuuot sa tenga ko, di ko sinasadya,pramiz!)

girl 1(talking in a very LOUD voice): aba! kung sa ateneo law school ka mag-aaral, dapat me kotse ka noh? nakakahiya naman kung wala kang kotse..tapos lahat ng kaklase mo meron, ikaw lang ang wala…(which is the reason why my ears got caught in the exchange…HUWATTTTT??? eh di nakakahiya ako kung ganun BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA sabi na nga bah eh kapalmuks lang ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagtagal dun…oist! di naman lahat, majority lang…)

girl 2 (who unfortunately does not know any better):  oo nga, lahat siguro ng nag aaral dun mayaman noh? nakakahiya naman kung dun ka mag aaral tapos di ka maporma (at which point i’m almost gagging with suppressed laughter..i honestly don’t see the connection– ARAL = YAMAN = PORMA = HUH!?! who needs good clothes to learn!?! and granting that you do, ever heard of divi*!?! wattabout UK* huh!?! but…wait! it gets funnier!)

gurl1: siguro kung dun ka  mag aaral  tinitingnan lagi ng mga kaklase mo kung ano ang suot  mo…sa la salle siguro ganon..siguro nilalait ka ng mga kaklase mo kung di maganda ang suot mo..dapat laging bago noh para di naman nakakahiya sa mga kaklase mo… (BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA ewan ko sa taga-la salle kase dehins naman ako napupunta sa iskul nila at di ko alam kung bakit napunta dun yung train of thought niya siguro dahil mayayaman ang topic…siguro yung ibang mayayaman ugali mo naman ang tinitingnan…siguro di naman ganun ang mga mayayaman mag isip…siguro kung dun siya mag-aaral wala na siyang paanahon para isipin yung sinusuot ng ibang tao..siguro dapat yung pag aaral ang aatupagin niya dun at hindi kung me kotse at kung ano yung suot ng mga tao…siguro di naman lahat ng tao ganito mag-isip sa kapwa niya ke mahirap o mayaman man..)

gurl2: oo nga, ang hirap noh kung dun ka mag aaral..buti na lang wala akong balak mag-law (BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA yun naman pala…buti na lang iha…good for you. pero marami namang law school iha,kung me balak ka man mag-law..pero mahihirapan ka nga dun (pero di dahil sa wala kang kotse at di ka maporma..me mas"profound" na dahilan iha…) pero tama ka,like, you know, the people there? they are all mayaman you know and all so porma, you are not bagay there you know BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA)

*for my "mayaman" friends who do not know: "divi" is the short term for divisoria where you can buy  slacks for P150 and blouses for  less that  P100, suits for P600/pair; "UK" is my favorite clothes shop a.k.a. ukay-ukay or wagwagan =)

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it’s a pity i was successful at drowning out gurl1’s voice at the start of their conversation, i’m sure it would have been more hilarious! but i had enough dose of laughter to keep me sunny till now…don’t intend to be rude or mean but duh!?! what’s with the stereotype? there are a number of poor but deserving students (like me! poor-mejo-tagilid-lang-sa-deserving-part-pero-trying) who goes to ateneo law school…in the four years that i mingled with the rich there,i never felt like an outcast for not having a car or not wearing "good-in-the-sense-that-they-are-new-or-maporma clothes" …and i never thought that you have to be rich or dress well to get a good education (nyah! at ba’t ako nag-aastang "atenista" with my english and all hehehe) wala lang, sobrang nakakatawa lang na 1) di ako mayaman at 2)wala akong kotse at 3) di ako maporma at 4) di naman ako nahiya EVER sa pagcocommute o sa mga UK clothes ko at ang clincher 5) sa ateneo law school po ako nag aral..opo,natapos ko naman po ng walang kahihiyan, tenk you.   

siguro mababait lang talaga yung mga naging kaklase ko kaya di ko naramdaman na dapat pumorma para di ako mahiya sa kanila o kaya man siguro makapal lang talaga ang mukha ko kasi  ni minsan di  naman ako nagkunwaring mayaman para wag mahiya…ay, sandali lang kailangan ko lang sabihin: salamat inay,itay sa paggapang niyo po para sa aking edukasyon kahit na tayo ay hindi mayaman binigyan niyo po ako ng pagkakataon. mahal na mahal ko po kayo, di bale makakabawi din po ako sa inyo…balik sa aking blog: kung ganun pala sa ateneo, buti na lang di ako tumingin sa porma ng ibang tao sa loskul kung hindi, sana di ako nakapagtapos sa sobrang kahihiyan (w/my P10 or P5 ukayukay jackets from the streets of gingoog public market or P50-80jackets from the wagwagan of baguio…and my jeep, tryc or lakad transpo to school) BWA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA tsk,tsk,tsk…ang kabataan nga naman kung mag-isip…di naman lahat ng mayayaman,nanlalait pag di bago suot mo o kung ala ka kotse..

ay, ako lang bah? yaiks! baka naman ako ang sablay? hyuk! hyuk! hyuk! hyuk! mga atenista talaga…kasalanan niyo to,anyaman niyo kase eh…lahat kase kayo me kotse..lahat kayo tumitingin sa suot ng tao…nanlalait pag di bago…nakakahiya tuloy makihalubilo sa inyo…
[ balimbing! =) just in case ako pala ang sablay hehe]

where did that saying "time flies when you’re having a good time" come from?
i dunno.but it certainly is true.

i met an old friend yesterday…we spent a couple of hours just yakking about anything and everything that came up our minds..yeah, we have not seen each other for a long time but there is something about friendship that makes time dissolve when you are together. i mean, okay we had a lot of catching up to do but still, the hours seem only like a couple of seconds.another friend told me once, friendship is not about how often you see each other but it is how you take off from where you left.. in our case, i love the way the lost years seem to have vanished.

haven’t seen this friend for more than three years and wuz kinda scared before she got to our meeting place(another friend was supposed to be with her but she got sick). i mean, for a few minutes i mulled over how to greet her ( kiss or just smile? it’s been so long, how would she take it if i act like we were lost sisters?)..also thought about how to begin to rekindle the friendship that we had (uuuhhh, dunno how to gauge the extent of our closeness before)..will she  feel as  happy as  i am–seeing her again?  and many other silly thoughts came over my mind…

but when my friend arrived it was like we were together just last weekend…i felt no hesitation at all. when i saw her, all the lost years evaporated and i just thought "darn!i miss this gurl!" and we started talking and laughing out loud about the mundane and anything that crossed our minds.i remember how much i love hearing her laughter.it is one distinct gift a friend can give another. and her eyes that laugh with her soul is another thing that i miss about her.i was so happy i did not notice the time until she had to leave to meet her sister..

seeing her again made me feel really lucky (inspite of my karmic disaster at present) because at one point in my life i met such a great person and i thank my stars for this chance to see her again.can’t wait to share more coffee and stories with her…