exxy’s spot

i believe that hating someone, like happiness, is a choice.

no matter how bad a person treats you, you can either strike back, fight fire with fire or you can simply lift up such negative feelings and go on with the brighter side of things. i choose the latter.

giving up on someone is like saying that such person is incapable of change to see the evil of her ways. it is ignoring the basic premise that as intellectual beings, we are supposed to be beyond mere emotions in our dealings with other people. it does not matter much how other people treat you. what matters is how you treat other people. so when i feel like someone is not treating me right, i do not take it as a personal affront to my character or being. i take it as a sign that such person may be placed in a situation where it brings out the worst in her. so, instead of anger, i feel pity towards her. she says negative things about other people because that is her perspective. that is her point of view of how some people are. if she would waste her time wallowing in the misery of her situation and taking it out on someone else, then that is her choice.

i can respect that. i can be a subject of someone else’s bullying tendencies. 

i just hate it when it is done behind my back.

i’d rather have someone say they hate me in front of my face and treat me bad rather that be with someone who pretends to care for me and be my friend when in fact they are not. life is too short to be wasted on pretensions. in the end, it does not matter much what you have done in this life, what matters is how you did it.

oh. for the record, i am not being a self-righteous b*+ch here. i’m just writing these thoughts to remind myself i am supposed to be beyond stupid, petty and momentary lapses of prudence. to quote a bumper sticker:

“Lord, please grant me patience. NOW.”