exxy’s spot

10. quit stressing about it.
        by this time last year  i had so many stress-related problems ( according to the derrmatologist and doctor that  i consulted). thank God this year there are no signs yet (either i’m successful or because i’m getting used to it mwe he he he). i was so grouchy i might as well have been a frown pasted with a face. thank you Lord, this year i’m taking it one day at a time,with a smile (maybe next week it’ll be harder to keep this resolution).

at the end of the day, like what my pops said, it’s just an exam. it does not define who i am.

  9. forget about other people’s problems for a change.
        according to uncle ben,"with great power comes great responsibility." i dunno why but  still have to realize that  i am not spiderman (okay, mejo malabo ang comparison kasi una babae ako. pangalawa,la naman talaga akong superpowers,akala ko lang kaya ko iligtas ang buong mundo.at pangatlo, mejo mas  personal ang mga problema na inaatupag ko…la lang, gusto ko lang kasi i quote si uncle ben.hehe)     
   
really have to work on this. aaarrrrgggghhhhh.pakialamera kase.chismosa pa.hay.

  8. take a leave from being the kamag-anak/kababayan/anak ng nanay niya/anak ng  tatay niya-na-nasa-manila-na-makakasama-sa-kung-saan-man
        now this i cannot possibly do…but i guess by august i have to learn.God, please teach me to say "sorry  tita/tito/cousin/kababayan,di ko po kayo masasamahan. mga 20,000 pages po and kelangan kong aralin at  nasa 500 pages pa lang po ako."

but if i don’t…who will? my poor relatives/kababayans who need to have someone go with them to whereever in this urban jungle might get lost …or worse, be a prey to heartless persons who take advantage of those "bagong salta sa manila".
      
i just don’t have the heart to do this.

  7. i will not be a "losyang" reviewee.   
like last year.ugh.uncombed hair every freaking day.for five months.thought that it is a waste of time to go through the routine of  choosing your clothes and looking at the mirror. but felt ugly the whole time (di ako  kagandahan pero  pag me  konting effort  eh nawawala naman yung lukot ng damit ko at nagmumukha naman  akong tao…)

oh. by the way, my idea of dressing "up" is taking time to dry my hair (with the electric fan) ,thinking what  to wear (for thirty seconds…one minute max!),putting on powder and cheek tint, and choosing a bag.

  6. stop being supersititious about it.
i did not put my real permanent address on the self-addressed stamped envelope cause a kababayan said "malas daw yung mga babae na kumumuha ng exam galing sa siyudad namin " so i wrote another address.tapos andami  pang mga pamahiin…pati yung color ng damit namin (sabi kasi ni rosa, dapat  green kasi yun ang lucky color last year).

pero wag nga kayong mag-aral sa LSAC friends….i am  a living proof.totoo yun. (na me bumabagsak sa mga LSAC residents every year.)

  5. take more breaks.
compared to a typical reviewee, i had lotsa breaks last year….but i was really intense on reading every single g*dd@mn day that even if i went out i did not have fun cause i felt guilty for not studying. so there was nothin to look forward to cause even my so-called-breaks were guilt-ridden.

this year, i  went to the beach during review twice already and i will go one more time before preweek,i swear! have to finish first reading before the bacolod vacation. wheeeeeeeee!!!! a real break to be excited about!

  4. sleep less.
this is my ultimate vice. sloth personified i am. guilty as charged.i can afford to sleep even in august last  year (though there were nightmares and uncontrollable anxiety attacks  before going to sleep). i guess i am hopeless on this one. i spent at least one third of my life sleeping. i don’t  think  it will change. but i have to at least exert a perfunctory effort to try.hehe.

  3. quit quitting stuff.
last  year: no booze from july-september.no beach. no vacations. no big breaks. only one movie a week,twice in july, none in august. no meeting with friends.no texts the whole day.no friendster.no night outs.no social life of any kind.no dating (joke! never did hehehehe).suspended lovelife (okay,i confess i had nothing to quit hehehe but i had musings of having one before the review started)
   
this year:   nothing can keep me away from my strong ice. ever. i will go with pixie to batangas on august. will be in bacolod on july. i will watch superman next week.i’m meeting judith on sunday.i won’t turn off my phone for the whole day.i’m blogging.okay maybe i have to give up the night outs…but not the social life part. hhhmmmm…i guess i’ll never be the dating kind but maybe i’ll try it for a change.good thing i don’t believe in love anymore.
 
2. STUDY.
        MWE HE HE HE .apparently, i did not know enough stuff to get me through.
 
1. PASS.
now this is the hardest part. licked my wounds and am preparing for the next round. i thought i was ready last year  but when it’s time, sheesh! i lost all confidence and just broke down after each freakin subject. lost hope  i’m gonna make it after civ.that sunday, i called up pops and moms and profusely apologized  for failing them.
      
not gonna happen this time.

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i’m keeping all the good resolutions that i had last year…just changin some cause once again i tried to conform to the norms and it did not work for me.i guess i should stay out of the box.

well, all of us have worries, but i have a drinking problem…

you gotta read this to understand how i feel.

let’s live life friends! stay happy n’ such *wink* wink*

SUBJECT: exxy the beach bum

ADDICTION STATUS: hopelessly incurable

SYMPTOMS: illogical and unreasonable longing to go to the beach and very recently just took a WEEK-LONG break(!!!!) to escape to the island of camiguin; acted like a completely crazy kid who just got a huge lollipop while lying in the morning sun at the white sand bar;fun is running around and playing with the fishes; got a tan which made her sunblock-smothered bestfriend shriek in disbelief;have an irresistible passion for the sun,sea and sand;has a mild to moderate addiction to other bodies of water that she bathed in: swimming pool of soda water,hot spring,cold spring,waterfalls,stream; can’t get enough aqua massage from the stream of water running through her back; took great delight in snorkeling and kayaking in duka bay until it was too dark to see anything; mother gasped at the sight of her tanned child who is almost unrecognizable as she is already morena to start with; swore she will save enough money to get that freaking  license to dive and get to see the wonders of the underwater;delightfully went to another beach upon settling back at home;took a last minute dip with pops in the sea at the back of their house.

DIAGNOSIS: suffering from an incurable addiction to the beach and the sight of the sunset; will take a lifetime of travel to the best beaches of the world and a diving license to achieve a semblance of happiness;suffering from moderate hydro-mania and will happily jump into any body of water;certified sun worshiper and probably lost remaining brain cells due to burning from direct sunlight;patience with the outside world fast diminishing;beyond redemption.

MEDICATION: friends must donate cash to avoid possible early demise of subject due to impatience from lack of funds to buy her own sixteen-foot kayak and the very expensive diving license.immediate action required. friendship is good but subject needs cash. =)