papunta ako nang opis nang marinig ko ang balita…me sasabihin ang pangulo ng bansa.di ko akalain, isa sa mga kinatatakutan kong mangyayari ay tuluyang magaganap.

PROCLAMATION 1017. STATE OF EMERGENCY.

ano ang epekto nito? konti lang naman…pwede lang hulihin ang mga taong sa tingin ng administrasyon ay me pakana na pabagsakin si ginang arroyo.ano ang batayan? kung sa tingin ng namamahala me ginagawa kang nakakasama sa pamahalaan..pwede na. huli ka. kahit walang "arrest warrant"? oo, kase nga nasa  "state of emergency" tayo. magulo na daw masyado. pwede rin pansamantalang mapunta sa pamahalaan ang kontrol sa mga kumpanyang sa tingin nila ay nakakasira sa interes ng nakakarami. kung sa tingin nila masama ang dulot ng kumpanya sa bayan…pwede na.kontrolado na nila. walang pwedeng kumontra."emergency" nga eh. 

"the exercise of extraordinary powers by the president for the perceived necessity to suppress violence by those who want to topple the administration is valid under a state of emergency".

kung di daw mapipigilan ang mga gumagawa ng "destabilization plans" laban sa pamumuno niya "economic meltdown" daw and dulot nito.ano!??? siguro bobo lang ako pero di ko malubos isip pano naging "threat to the existence of the nation" ang mga kilos protesta. yun daw kasi ang dapat na batayan para makapagdeklara ng "state of emergency". aba, akalain mong ang pagpapahayag ng karapatan ng mga mamamayan ay naging sanhi para bumagsak ang ekonomiya at magdulot ng "state of emergency"? matapos niyang magyabang na di siya mapapabagsak eh natatakot siya sa mga di naman kumpirmadong coup de etat kuno? kaya nga coup kasi "swift attack" sa gobyerno.. di ito pinaplano sa kilos protesta sa bangketa..

hay. kawawa naman ang bansang Pilipinas.

matatakot ka ba kung pwede kang arestuhin sa mga gawain na pagpapahayag lamang ng iyong karapatan? siguro kung ako si prof. david..hindi.

pero isang duwag akong kelangan manatili sa opis habang pinapanood ang mga makabayang nagpapahayag ng kanilang pagkainis sa pamahalaang arroyo.wala akong lakas ng loob na makibaka sa harap ng mga kilos protesta. andito lang ako sa opis at gumagawa ng resolusyon.

para sa ano?

me senado pa ba pag gising ko sa umaga? (sana..me sweldo akong inaabangan eh..) 

parang walang saysay ang ginagawa ko. kahit anong ngitngit kung wala namang kasamang aksyon ay wala ring mangyayari. pero ito lang ang alam kong gawin.ang magtrabaho para sa bayan. sa isang bulok na pamahalaan. sinisikap ko na sana sa konting paraan me magagawa ako para mabago to.    

pero kung ganito magwalang-bahala ng mga karapatang-pantao and gobyerno…para saan ang pagsisikap nating mga Pilipino?

magluksa ka bayan.

i had a bad day so i decided to watch a movie to soothe my nerves…i ended being unsettled cause i watched a display of loneliness that is so real and so tangible it wrenches at my very soul.

brokeback mountain.

a story of a love so true in the real sense of the word the passion that goes with it might leave you dizzy.yet the longing that they feel for each other will also unsettle you not because it was not right but because at the back of your mind, you know that they are hurting other people.

aahh..to love without caring what the world may think!

you-and-me-against-the-world.

good thing reality dawned on me at the end of the movie. or else i would have been sucked into the world of hopeless abandon to emotions.don’t get me wrong, the movie was great.it only unsettled me because i can’t stand the thought that they are hurting other people to express their love. that i can’t understand.

and in the end, they were full of regrets.sad.   

Heart, We Will Forget Him!

by Emily Dickinson

Heart, we will forget him!
You an I, tonight!
You may forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done, pray tell me
That I my thoughts may dim;
Haste! lest while you're lagging.
I may remember him!

my friend exxy, she is such a worrywart..sitting ugly duckling worrywart to be precise. she worries about all these stuff that is going around if you listen to her you’ll get sick of being alive..good thing i am there to hold her horses.she is such a worrywart i swear one day i’m just gonna scream at her face: "SHUT UP!"

she worries about the future..not just her own, mind you, but the whole universe. she worries that people will one day stop caring about what the world will be that it will just break down and there will be nothing left for the poor children who will not enjoy life as she did..there will be no human existence as she knows it..cause if people will stop worrying about the world and it’s destruction, then we are indeed going to the dogs..she worries that she is continually adding to the destruction of the earth by her mere existence. it is a futile effort to live because the world is no longer safe to live in. the air is dirty, the water is unsafe to drink, the earth is destroyed to the core.not to mention, some people just don’t care at all.. 

she worries about the philippines..it’s such a small country relative to the world but its inherent capacity to self-destruct  is so strong that she thinks if the people are not so resilient and good-natured, it would have been literally on fire because of civil war…she is proud to be pinoy but shameful of the government’s audacity to continue the destruction of her beautiful country..graft, corruption and the continuing migration of the best and the brightest.. what will happen to the philippines? and she worries that she might take that option too..escape to a better life in another country..

she worries about life in general.. if people no longer care about the world, mother nature and the things that is happening around us, then what good will our existence be?

oh, don’t mind her, she loves to babble about these stuff to anyone who will give a s#!t.exxy is such a scatterbrain if you listen to all her blabber you’re gonna puke with her worries.

good thing i am one of those apathetic, complacent contented persons who don’t give a cent’s worth thinking about stupid stuff such as these.

i don’t worry at all.do you?